2 days ago is a "best" day i ever had...Let me tell you my stupid story.. some people said that i sooo compulsive about everything,i mean i didn't thought what i choose before..yup, it's me Alfi!(maybe)

After i back from Bandung, many questions in my head,esspecially about what is true love,friendship and many thoughts about my way on comic world..so, i just thought, that as long as i live, i 'NEVER' get what i want but i always says thanks to God what i gets until today..and i asked to my self,"hey alfi,what's wrong with you?tell me what you want and make you happy"..i try answered "i want family,i want a career etc..etc..etc..but those are couldn't answered my question because i DON't know what i NEED now..and because of that, for latest year i felt "ngisup"( confuse -in english )..i felt i'm out of plan..i always blame my past,but i couldn't let it all..about my fault,my divorced,my job and everything which related with my future..pheew..

But,2days ago, i was back to my house,when i cross a street near Pet Centre in Barito street..I saw a Himalayan kitten..d'you know what happen? Spontaniouslly and compulsivelly (hahaha)an hours later,i got that kitten!!..and i feel "happy".I don't know what i did that day was right choose or not!and i realize that i don't have enough money for that..but i choose to spend my money for that! After that..At least, i feel happy because now she is my new friend in my house and she also make my parent happy( you know, this is first time i saw my parent smile and feel happy with what i'm doing).and then i give her name Celine fien Claire'..i don't know what it mean..but i love that name.since that day,i felt i have responbillity to doing the best for Celine' because i once made mistake with Wolfie my siberian husky and his friends.I lost them all ( one left - Kapten is my last sibe i kept)and i have brought that guilty feeling until now...

Yup, now i get the point of my question.. "I have to take responbillity what i choose and i will know what i need"..it's like what i'm doing in MANTRA PAWITRA..

thanks guys for read this Journal carefully..
Merci b'coup..